Free at Last

Did anyone of you, my sweet kind readers, ever experienced being deeply and utterly in love with the potential of someone?

You meet this pure and golden soul and you really see through the ugly masquerade they have embellished themselves with?  Noticing that you spend all your time together trying to open their eyes and to try to let them tap into their inner beauty and strength?  No effort is spared to help them. You spend all your energy, your sacred and abundant energy, on them instead of yourselves, with the result that you leave behind your own healing, your own interests and even sometimes your own happiness.

But you go strong as thou shallt not fail.

Thou shallt convert this person and thou shallt open their eyes so help you Mother God, as if it is the last thing thou shallt do on this earth.

All this and than suddenly! It clicks!  The penny drops.  10kg loss of weight, 50 000 grey hairs extra and 2 years loss of youth later, the gong of truth is pulsating through your core and it's deafening.  No denying here!

They will never change.

They will never see.

They will never try to learn.

They will never ever try to understand.

As they do not seek to become better.

They seek this and only this: attention.

They thrive of your attention, devouring all vibrations from you untill there is nothing more left.
You get it.
You get it and it is the saddest feeling in the world but with this heartbreak also comes: (drum roll......................) freedom.
(Freeeeeeeedoooooooooooooooommmm, freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom, have some faith in the sound! (Thank you, George Michael!)).
As if the hugest boulder drops from your shoulders.  As if the shackles around your heart and mind are finally released.  

All this time and energy for yourself and you see wonders happening.
All this time and energy for yourself and it makes you wonder if maybe, just maybe, the person never had any potential to begin with.

Maybe.  Just maybe.  It was yóu that needed help all along. 

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